Baby K smiled at me today. A big, squinty eyed, gummy smile. I had just finished feeding him and was talking to him saying "Hiiii" and he smiled. Twice. I was a little surprised about it. When you feel a little like a zombie for weeks on end, moments like that are so treasured. It made me remember that T was stingy about her smiles for awhile at the beginning so I hope that baby K won't follow his sister's example, cause man, it's real cute.
T is a wonderful big sister. She is so interested in him and gives him lots of loves and pats on his head everyday. There have been a few close calls where she might have tried to be a little too loving, but I think she genuinely likes being a big sister. We got her
a book while I was pregnant that I think really helped. It is just pictures, but it was nice to talk about what a big sister does and what a new baby would be like. (A small tangent... I really Really love children's books. There are so many good ones out there. I also really love the library. It's fun to go get a pile of new books and explore them with T. It helps me find out what she likes before I buy any books.) She is doing well without me too, she is such a mamma's girl, and last week surprised me by going to the park with her Grandpa B by herself. She just came up to me and said "Byyyee" and left. That has never happened before. I often feel guilt that I can't be two of myself and still give T the time I used to. I am hoping that as baby K gets on a schedule, I'll be able to do more one on one time with her again.
My biggest struggle, besides the lack of sleep, is that my pregnancy weight is sticking around. I assumed that I would slowly loose it like I did with T, but I haven't lost any since coming home from the hospital, and it makes me feel like a blob. My preggo clothes are still the most comfortable and I shudder at the idea that I may need to go buy some pants that fit me right now. What I would really like to do is throw away 90% of my wardrobe. After I lose the 25 lbs, of course. Having S around makes it a little more tricky to not want to eat really yummy food all the time too. I think we made a dessert every night last week. So good... My goal is to cut down on all the extras and hope to see some results. If not, I may have to go on a diet. I have never really done that and I fear I lack the self discipline to stick to something. I can offically start exercising again in a few weeks and I am excited that now I have an exercise buddy in S. Pilates here I come!
